Deep healing can happen even when disappointing things have occurred in your life. A cancer diagnosis, a broken bone that takes what you love away, a suspected brain tumor, surgery, goodbyes with a connection that you thought would last a lifetime, long distant relationships that are hard to maintain, business opportunities that you could not pursue, or a loved one is taken from you unexpectedly. These are hard to face when you are hit multiple times in a row. It erodes your self-esteem, it makes you feel unworthy, and you may even question why you have a deep burning need to help people continually.

I spent the last 7-years after multiple accidents in intense pain, vertigo, and a suspected brain tumor. I did not tell many people, because it became my normal. Get up, show up, help people, make a difference was my way. I worked a part-time job and was starting a nutrition business. Then, my business failed during the pandemic. At first, I blamed many things for the failure, but the ultimate responsibility was mine. I felt like a failure. Fortunately, I was never quite at a point of giving up, again that is not my way. I got up every day and climbed my mountain again and again and again. I looked at myself with a critical internal focus. I went back into my past to clean up anything that was not ok, that needed my attention. I found many hard ugly truths to face. I forgave myself for each one. In the process, I wanted to be happy inside, so I journaled a lot. I mean a lot.

They say, that after the storm the clouds clear

Finally, I got to a point where I wanted my life back. I came up with 5 pillars that taught me how to support myself, daily. I worked on these 5 pillars daily. I pushed myself outside my comfort zone. And then, after two years, a shift began. I started seeing amazing results on the outside. People started asking me what I was doing.  Someone even said I glowed.  These pillars have given me the support I have searched for since childhood. It was hard work because I was accustomed to helping everyone else around me. You see, the pillars made me focus on everything internally. I am not perfect, and I wobbled often. I lost opportunities and I lost friendships along the way. I gained new friends, outside support, deeper relationships, and internal happiness.

My gifts, which I continually get from these 5 pillars are amazing. I have found that my focus gets easier. I am quicker at mental recovery. My relationships are stronger and more authentic. I quickly let go of what does not support me. I get what I want which is a deep connection with others. I still make mistakes, but I know how to move forward.  I am happier and grateful. I hope you can also find value in using them.

My pillars are:

• Abundant Joy

• Optimum Health

• Positive Relationships

• Growing Wealth

• Gratifying Vocation
  
  Use these to make a daily To-do list with a focus on your core values, needs, and desires. Write them out everyday. Think about what would make abundant joy. Or how do I achieve optimum health? What would you say to a relationship that rejected you? What is wealth to me? How can I make my job gratifying?

  I hope you find these helpful in your healing journey.
  
  Much love, bright stars💫

  Sue